Bcs of u..

today...
my friend ask me a question..
ask me..
if my x suddenly find u back...
come to ur school... say wanna u to wif him again...
n ur bf was there..
u will choose to hold whose hand n walk away...
i din think a second time..
i told her..
i will talk to my x clearly... wat happend..
after that...
i will hold my bf hand walk away..
n tell him clearly 4 don let him miss understanding..
....
bcs of u...
i first time thinking wat i can do 4 u to make u happy..
bcs of u...
i thinking of how to let u thinking of me every second...
bcs of u...
i do many firsdt thing that i had never do b4 to my x...

u know..
u were lucky...
u were!
i hope that i do this all is to a correct person..
i do hope so...

boys...
some time say he will marry u..
wanna b wif u forever..
wont let u hurt..
wont let u go away..
will always b on ur side...
i told u..
u can hear..
but don go trust!
bcs u cant!
if u trust just will get hurt..
n get dissapointed 4 that wat he say to u!~
it wont b 100 % true..
but will b 99% wrong!
but i choose to trust wat he say to me b4..
bcs i hope that my heart think wont b wrong..
my heart say this is the correct person that can let u b wif him together 4 life..
but...
now..
i din have any confidence anymore...
i just taking worry in my life..
day by day..
taking cry day by day...
hurting day by day...
dunno y...
last time d me...
just will seperate ..
but now...
y would i stay at home lying on the bed closing my eyes...
crying alone n hoping he will come explain to me..
hope that he will say something to me nice!
hoping that he wont lik b a childish thinking...

bcs of u...
i suffer in life...
painfully...
cant discribe anything that in my mind!!!!
just telling myself that i doing this is bcs giving him chance...

did i do wrong?
T.T
hope he will gib me a answer..

i just kno..
im stupid..
im crazy..
im ...


ntg...

dunno...
dunno anymore!
u let me deeply dissapointed...
u deeply hurting me..
my eye was hurt by u..
n cant control it..

just told me that i doing all its right...
wish is right...

bcs..
i been hurt by many ppl..
bcs of my selfishness..
i rather to giving him a chance...
but he will kno how to use this chance?

chance just gib by once..
not anymore..
din use carefully..
it will gone forever!~

i cant control my feeling..
i now..
just kno that..
i lik last time..
hurt by one ppl that i love..
i scare...
i do really scare..
i want him to gib me his sholder...
if cant..
pls let me kno
T.T
do i really do wrong...
do ur heart still got me..

-zing-