my diamon eyes..

haiz...
got one ppl tell me one thing
he say that..
when u having a bf..
he must have a responsible to acc u...
care u..
everything..
to 24hour acc u...
let u happy...
wont let u bored...
must protect her..
bcs the day he started wif u..
he must gib all to u..
n if i have a gf..
i wont let any ppl sms her or find her..
bcs i will acc her 24 hour..
busy wif her
...
when ppl ask u wat u r busying wif
u will say...
busy acc my gf..
busy thinking of her..
busy find think to do wif her..
busy giving her surprice..
busy make her happy..
busy plying wif her..
busy teaching her stuff that she dunno..

n when u in a relationship...
no ppl will wanna find u le..
bcs they kno u have bf/gf
so no one will talk to u..
so only ur bf...will...
he need to..
bcs u r his...
all!~
...
he now wont busy about me..
but i hope that he will try..
just giving him a second cahcne to try..
bcs i already to choose to b wif him..
i just can let him to try..
by hurting myself...
or
crying alone..
i also wish that he will do his best 4 ME!~
my diamon eyes...
was ill enough to bcs a ppl that i care...
droping down always...
bcs i tell my self..
giving him a chance is zhi de d..
hope he wont let me dissapointed...

..
but..
..

today he suddenly ask me..
if im become a gay..
wat was ur react?
whenu asking me this question..
i just can tell u that..
my mind was blank ..
my heart was broken piece
i was SUFFERING!
my diamon eye...
droping one by one..
hurting...
dunno wat should i do..
i just kno..
i have no energy any more..
i tired of loving a person..
i wanna ppl to love me!!!!
thats wat i wan NOW!!!!!!!!
my diamon eye
will blooding
some days....
just don hurt me...
but pls telling me the truth....
i dunno wat i really wan anymore!!!!
argh!

(if i hurt by u... n this is my last relationship... i will stop my heart to loving someone.. n become a boy that everyone was waiting me to chnge to.! who will change me back that time.. good luck 4 that) * my broken angry feeling*i never had b4!!~
-zing-